Thursday, September 24, 2015

Diary entry I

When you think of love, what is it that comes to mind? Hearts. Hugs and kisses. I love you's? But what does it truly mean to love? I was in love once...twice. Everyone thinks they know what love is when they never had it. But honestly it's nothing you ever can expect. You feel like that person is the only thing that matters in the world. As if you lose them the next day, you wont be able to breath. The way there smile can simple change your day, giving you butterflies! The way you remember every slightest detail of them, the way they smile, or laugh. Maybe the way they ruffle their hair when nervous. Love...it's an amazing thing. It is something you should cherish. Once you lose it, it's gone. 
When you lose it you think it's the end of the world. You all know how my last relationship ended. People ask me sometimes; Was it worth it? 
Yes, cause I woke up each morning for that person to brighten their day knowing I could possibly be what changes something as little as a smile. 
When you lose someone that important you think "I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO LOVE AAAAGGGGGAIINNN!!!" 
I would be fooling myself it if i said that wasnt me. It's now that I found someone that I could change there perspective in things. I wouldn't say I am in love, but knowing that i make such a difference by simply saying hi makes me feel special.  What does the future hold for me, well that I am unsure of. But right now that I am in the dark, I found a little light that gives me too a reason to let out a laugh. To simply forget about the world and remember that there is always some goodness. 

Thursday, September 17, 2015

ABC questions.

Hey Mel here my lovely people! I am working my butt off in school but thought i should post something so here it is :).

A:Age-14
B:Biggest fear- Heights. Deep waters. 
C:Current time: 4:30pm
D:Drink you last had - Milk. 
E:Easiest person to talk to- +bat man, +Harrison Cross , +angela  

F: Favorite movie- Cloud Atlas or Titanic.
G:Grossest memory- Hmmmm i cant think of something. 
H:Hometown-Florida..... 
I: In love with- No one honestly. 
J: Jealous of- +Harrison Cross  fabness XDDDD hahah
K: Killed someone- NO O_O NEVER! Almost.... +bat man  :P LOL
L:Longest relationship: 11 months.... ._. Not even a year. 
M: Middle name: Victoria.
N: Number of siblings: 3
O: One wish- For my mom to always be happy. :) 
P-Person you last called:  No one but last person i message on hangout was +bat man  & +angela 
Q:Questions people always ask you:  Can i see your paper for number 7....
R:Reason to smile-My family & friends. I am nicknamed Joy for a reason :)
S:Song last sang-Havent met you yet~Michael buble
T:Time you woke up-5:30am
U-Underwear color-Purple and black...
V:Vacation destination: VERMONT or London
W:Worst habit- Not getting a life.
X:X-ray you had:I had my whole body X-ray'd
Y:Your favorite food:Sandwiches/Burgers. I eat like a dude. 
Z:Zodiac: Taurus 

That's it for today!! i love you all!!! Have a great day. Good luck in school!